On hold


The world is on hold right now. At least, that’s what it feels like.

I don’t know how the COVID-19 pandemic is affecting you all. Maybe you’re like I was, a couple days ago. Food is flying off the shelves, no toilet paper, you watch things explode and you stay home, but nothing is directly affecting you.

I just took a break right now from packing. Not packing clothes in a suitcase. I thought I’d be doing that on Tuesday the 17th. I was going to fly out to visit Andrew on the 19th, stay with his sister, visit his parents’ farm and see where he grew up.

Well, this morning, those plans were canceled. It’s safer if Andrew drives out to see me, because all he’ll have to do is pump gas. He won’t have to be in contact with many people. And it’s not that I’m worried about getting sick. I’m healthy. I’d recover quickly. But I have grandparents here. And a great-grandma. No, it’s a bit of a risk.

So what packing was I doing? I was packing things off my bookshelf. I was packing books I didn’t think I’d pack for another five weeks or so. But Andrew and I talked, and decided that we ought to pack up as many things as possible and send them back with him this trip – instead of waiting for the April and May trips, because we really don’t know at this point if he’ll make it out for those trips. Nothing is certain right now. State borders could be closed. We’d better not risk it, so he’s taking everything he can.

I joked to Allison that I guessed I’d be trying out minimalism sooner than I thought – capsule wardrobe and everything. Yep, pretty much.

And you know what the CDC said about limiting groups of 50 people? That’s right – church has been canceled, indefinitely. Yours probably has too.

And you know what Trump said about limiting groups of more than 10? That’s right. My bridal shower has been postponed. Indefinitely. Oh, and my friend Sam and I were supposed to go out to dinner. My parents weren’t comfortable with that a few days ago, so we decided not to, but I forgot to cancel the reservations.

The governor did that for me. Because restaurants in NC are closing tonight, at 5pm.

Our wedding planner said we needed a backup plan for the wedding. There’s a high chance we’ll be using plan B. Plan B looks nothing like Plan A does. Plan B looks like our parents, my grandparents, our 2-4 best friends.

When my friend Penelope said they hadn’t bought the plane tickets for her to come out to be in my wedding yet, because they were holed up in their house in Oregon, I freaked out. That was about two weeks ago.

We were sure things were going to blow over. Well? Now I’m not sure anyone will make it to the wedding. I don’t really care, all that much. In fact, I think that if we end up having to use Plan B, my mom is going to be more disappointed than I. I just want to marry Andrew, but I’m my parents’ only daughter, and they wanted me to have a big, beautiful wedding, and all the parties. Because weddings are something to be celebrated.

I guess we’ll see, won’t we. I don’t know what is going to happen in the next few weeks. But God is good, and God is in control, and even when I’m about to break down in tears because I’m not sure how to understand what is going on, He knows – and orchestrates – our future.

So I’m just going to keep remembering that, and I hope you will too.

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  • Reply Allison

    Oh Aria. <3 <3 <3 I love you, my friend. No one has all the answers but I'm sure glad we serve a God who does. I'll pray that he reveals them soon. <3

    March 17, 2020 at 2:35 pm
    • Reply Aria

      I love you too! Me too. And you know? It’s okay if He doesn’t soon because He will. In His own time.

      March 17, 2020 at 3:04 pm
  • Reply Hannah

    Great word Aria. My heart goes out to all the people who are at high risk, especially the elderly and all the people who have been/will be laid off of work. But also to the people who have big plans, such as big once-in-a-lifetime trips, weddings, etc. But I know that God has a reason for all of this, and I pray that people all over the world will see His goodness manifest even through this. ❤

    March 17, 2020 at 2:39 pm
    • Reply Aria

      <3 Yeah, same.

      March 17, 2020 at 3:05 pm
  • Reply Isabel

    I think my mind still hasn’t fully registered the fact that absolutely nothing is happening this month?!? I had a trip to Pennsylvania planned, tech week and three performances for theater, laser tag, a birthday trip to Chicago, and plenty of other things to fill the gaps but now nothing is happening heh. I’ll be praying for you, I know it’s disappointing to have to cancel trips you’ve been waiting for, and re-planning a wedding has got to be so so stressful.

    March 17, 2020 at 3:14 pm
    • Reply Aria

      Agh, yeah. So sorry everything has been canceled, Isabel. Thank you for the prayers! <3

      March 17, 2020 at 5:01 pm
  • Reply Lydia

    Hey, Aria! I just subscribed to this blog, and I’m already loving it. I’ve enjoyed looking at older posts, and the new ones! I’m SO EXCITED FOR YOUR WEDDING!!!!!! And I really admire your perspective on this whole virus thing . . . not everybody is looking at it that way. Some people are freaking out, others just don’t care, and some people are totally forgetting that GOD is in control, and He’s got the future. We need to remember that – so thanks for reminding me!!!

    March 17, 2020 at 3:25 pm
    • Reply Aria

      Of course! You’re welcome, Lydia. I’m glad you’re enjoying my blog posts. :)

      March 17, 2020 at 5:01 pm
  • Reply Natalie

    Thanks for sharing this. When everything started happening, you were one of the first people I thought of. I’ve already been praying that everything surrounding your wedding turns out okay. God’s plans are always so much better than our’s, even if we don’t understand.

    March 17, 2020 at 4:38 pm
    • Reply Aria

      Thank you, Natalie. Yes, they are!

      March 17, 2020 at 5:02 pm
  • Reply Kendra

    The world panicking over a new strain of the cold is crazy, in my opinion. Basically, it does no more harm than the flu does (the flu kills many, many, many, many people every year, and does anybody talk about it? NO.), and everyone is hoarding toilet paper like it’s the apocalypse. Therefore the people who aren’t panicking over the virus now are forced to go shopping as if they were, because who knows if there’ll be any food left? And we’re the ones stuck with the shortage of toilet paper. Lovely.

    Sorry, had to get that out of the way. I hope that your wedding will be able to go on as planned!!! How terrible to have the world be able to say that you can’t have it. But you are so right; God is in control, and He’s going to work this all out for good in the end. I suppose if you tried to have the wedding anyway it would sort of be breaking the law… but this wouldn’t be happening if it were the normal flu! That’s what upsets me. I’ll be praying specifically that your wedding can go on, Aria. <33

    March 17, 2020 at 5:01 pm
    • Reply Aria

      I know, it is kind of annoying. I have mixed feelings on all of that.
      But thanks, Kendra. Thank you. <3 (Oh, and I fixed your typos for you. XD)

      March 17, 2020 at 5:05 pm
      • Reply Kendra

        Ah, thanks. Yeah, actually, since I’ve written that comment I’ve actually had mixed feelings on it all too. Like hearing about how bad things are in Italy. Maybe it’s a good thing our country is being proactive and making sure things don’t get to that point. *shrugs shoulders*

        Thanks! :)

        March 20, 2020 at 4:13 pm
  • Reply Sarah

    ariaaa, my eyes are teary. probably because i’m *somewhat* relating to this post. i was supposed to be flying out to canada on the 28th for my brothers wedding. it was supposed to be a big wedding too. but we ended up with a wedding plan very similar to your plan B. and now, there’s no plan at all – there’s no way we can get to canada anymore now and the wedding’s been postponed until…well, nobody knows. and it’s all because of this virus. and i’ve just been so down lately because so much events are getting cancelled all around me – things i was really looking forward to. i’m so sorry to hear how things are going for you, aria. i’m left just thinking: “whyyy? why is this happening?”. but you’re right, aria, you’re right. God is so very much in control right now. i know He would never create this coranavirus just to watch us suffer. it’s entirely in His control and part of His ultimate plan… one we’ll never fully understand even though it’s entirely for our own good in the end (whether we see it that way or not). it’s gunna make sense in the end. i’m sorry your trip was cancelled and i’ll certainly be praying for you and andrew, i really hope your wedding can go ahead <3 <3

    March 17, 2020 at 6:04 pm
    • Reply Aria

      Oh goodness, Sarah. I am so sorry, that is so hard! Thank you dear. Yes, God is in control and He’s got a reason for this. We just can’t see it yet. <3

      March 17, 2020 at 6:08 pm
  • Reply Samantha

    Continuing to pray for wisdom in all the decison-making! Everything will all work out as it is intended to…..

    March 17, 2020 at 11:10 pm
    • Reply Aria

      Thank you, dear. Yes, it will.

      March 18, 2020 at 10:14 am
  • Reply Hannah Foster

    I hope everything does work out for your wedding, but even if does end up needing to be much smaller then you intended, it’s true, your still getting married and that is the best part (though I can definitely imagine it being harder on your mom. I was very willing to just go to a court house and get married, but I am sure that would not have gone over well with our parents. hehe!) But I also had an idea. 😉 You could always do a party some time after your wedding for all those who couldn’t come for the real wedding, so they can still end up celebrating with you. Just an idea! :)

    March 18, 2020 at 3:50 am
    • Reply Aria

      Thank you, Hannah. Yes, we have definitely considered that idea, and if we end up having a tiny ceremony, we’ll probably do that!
      <3 <3 Stay safe and well in Israel.

      March 18, 2020 at 10:19 am
      • Reply Hannah Foster

        Awe! Thanks! I hope you and your family stay safe and healthy, too!

        March 18, 2020 at 10:59 am
  • Reply Evelyn Kelly

    Aaah, I’m so sorry Aria.
    I’ve been following your blog for a while now (I can’t remember if I’ve ever commented before…) but in the past couple weeks I have often thought of your upcoming wedding.
    Your attitude here though is so encouraging though. I will be praying for you! <3

    March 18, 2020 at 9:11 am
    • Reply Aria

      Thanks, Evelyn!

      March 18, 2020 at 10:20 am
  • Reply Emma

    I’m so sorry, Aria! Praying everything will work out with the wedding!

    March 18, 2020 at 2:03 pm
    • Reply Aria

      Thank you, Emma! <3

      March 18, 2020 at 4:40 pm
  • Reply Laura G.

    Wow, Aria. ❤️ I’ll definitely be praying for you guys. What a tough situation. Know that my prayers are with you all.

    March 18, 2020 at 4:31 pm
    • Reply Aria

      Thank you ever so much, Laura. <3

      March 18, 2020 at 4:40 pm
  • Reply Audrey Kate Brown

    This whole pandemic thing is really crazy. One week, no U.S. cases. The next week, 1,600. O.o
    I’m so sorry all of your events and trips and gatherings are being cancelled. Our church and everything else is, too. I’m so happy God knows what is going to happen and He has a plan through all of this. I’m praying that your wedding can go on as planned! <3 Two months is plenty time for this to be cleared out and done. Stay safe and well!!

    March 19, 2020 at 2:34 pm
    • Reply Aria

      I know. :/ Yes, me too! Thanks, Audrey Kate. <3

      March 24, 2020 at 10:28 am
  • Reply Kiara

    This is so crazy! Will be praying for you

    March 20, 2020 at 8:34 pm
    • Reply Aria

      Thanks, Kiara!

      March 24, 2020 at 10:28 am
  • Reply Kiara

    My brothers wedding was canceled due to the virus. He was bummed out.

    March 23, 2020 at 8:03 pm
    • Reply Aria

      That is sad. :'(

      March 24, 2020 at 10:28 am

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